Opportunity for Spiritual Growth

The current situation across the globe has everybody feeling terrified. The shops are emptying quicker than they can be filled. People are fighting over toilet roll. Bars, shops, restaurants and gyms have been ordered to close, the world is going into lock-down. There is much fear amongst the people of the world right now, regardless of race, religion, gender, age or ethnicity, these differences do not matter to the virus that is causing such animosity. The hardest truth for us to swallow right now, and probably one that nobody is prepared to face, is that to some extent, we are all accountable for the pandemic that is wreaking havoc on our precious earth.

It has certainly been a difficult few weeks for the majority of us to be told to self-isolate and have most of our freedoms brought to a halt, in this respect, Christian or not, we have all been handed a cross to bear during these times. I know for most people this is going to seem like the worst thing in the world and perhaps find this time very challenging and difficult. I want to offer some words that have been spoken into my heart last night and this morning and I feel God is behind this and wishes for me to share with all who wish to read. I would also like to share my experience of isolation, as this is something that is not new to me, this is something that I appreciate and have come to understand as an essential part of growth and transformation, and combined with the words of God, it will be easy to see why.

Firstly, I would like to make all who are reading this aware that during times of crisis the general well-being of people actually goes up as we are pulled together by a force that is out of our hands. It is a time, and an opportunity, for us to be together, in unity, working with each other, alongside our brothers and sisters of whom we do not know, those in countries far away, and those on our street. It also brings us closer to our loved ones, this time of peril provides an opportunity for us to humble ourselves to one another and practice one of the most important fruits of the spirit, love. Not the conditional sort of love a lot of us in our western cultures have come to live by, no, an unconditional love that Jesus Christ showed to us, this love allows us to let the water flow under the burnt bridges that have collapsed over the years. The water puts out any embers that are present and have been preventing our ability to truly forgive. In forgiveness we find freedom, freedom from pain and suffering that in some cases has us living out destructive patterns of behaviour. This time of isolation, as it has always been for me, is a time for deep reflection, so take the time to reflect and ask yourself what is it that you want God to do in your life, and you will soon see that He is a God of miracles.

Isolation, not only provides the opportunity to forgive others, more importantly, it gives us the opportunity to forgive ourselves. During the vast time I have spent in isolation over the last five years, I have had much time and space to come to understand my wrong doings, and the times I have acted out in a sinful way. I realised in these times that I was always running from something, not anything material, although at times it was certainly projected into the material dimensions, but something deep inside of me, a pain that I wasn’t ready to face. When I first left for Australia in 2011, at the time I was just acting accordingly to an opportunity that had presented itself to me, it was only years later I came to realise that I was escaping, running away from years of hurt inflicted through betrayal, running from trauma. This inevitably led me down the rabbit hole where a world of sin awaits all who desire to escape the realities we bestow on ourselves. If this resonates with you, hear my words, I have been to the bottom of the rabbit hole and it only goes so deep, no amount of drugs, no amount of sex and no amount of sinful pursuit provides an escape route from ourselves. There is only one way to escape, and that is to forgive ourselves, and seek forgiveness from God, for only He can grant true freedom.

When we begin to become aware of the behaviour patterns that exist we can ask ourselves, how is this serving me, or better yet, how is this serving the world? When we ask these questions we can begin picking apart the dimensions of our deeply rooted ego’s that are not serving us, or the world. Ultimately, they are both good questions, but the second question, how is this serving the world provides an opportunity to humble ourselves to others, not just to ourselves, which in itself is a selfless act, the sort of action we see in Christ. When we all take this on board and begin this process, which we all have the opportunity to do so considering our ‘freedoms’ are not available to us right now, we begin to enter the harmonious equilibrium that exists in the symbiotic relationship with the totality of the universe, of which we are a part. When we forgive ourselves in this way, we notice a deep stillness inside of us, a deep peace, a new found freedom that was there all along. The old way of being begins to be humorous to us, and we can now laugh at how insignificant the old and destructive habits were. We can now tap into that harmonious space that exists within, that space of deep peace, a space we only find in isolation.

Once we have begun the process of reconciliation with ourselves and those around us can we begin to reverse our actions and start asking, the deepest question of all, what is my purpose? Because we all know our purpose is not to selfishly feed our own egos, which is, as we are extremely aware from our current situation around the world, highly destructive. We can ask, how am I to serve others? How can I be at service to the world? How can I benefit my community, right here, right now? What gift do I have that I can use to shine light upon this world? If you just heard a voice say, ‘I don’t have any gifts’, then I must tell you that you are lying to yourself, that voice is the voice of the enemy, your own ego keeping you confined inside the box you have built around yourself in fear of whats on the other side.

We ask these questions as we beg for God to guide us into a work that is fulfilling on every level, a work that sees us resonating every aspect of Christ! As the title of this blog states, this time of separation is not a time to despair, it is a time to face up to ourselves and humble ourselves before God, consign our sinful ways over to Christ, nail our old selves to the cross, and begin carrying that cross as we embark on a journey of deep transformation. This time of isolation truly is an opportunity for spiritual growth. This time of isolation is a gift from God, yes, this gift is coming at a great sacrifice with the death toll rising daily, however, without sacrifice we would never grow and I can assure you all now, the greater the sacrifice the greater the opportunity for growth is.

I will end with these words form scripture.

‘Therefore if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from His love, if any common sharing in the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of others.’ Philippians 2: 1 – 4. The whole chapter is relevant but them words stick out and resonate so much truth with how we should be acting during this pandemic. This time of isolation is providing the world over the opportunity to receive the Lords blessing, and for a place to be made for them in His Fathers house so they can also inherit the Kingdom of God, so their minds can be made anew. I wish this upon all of you, so please, reflect, pray, forgive and above all, be like Christ in these uncertain times and love unconditionally.

Created in God’s image, in His likeness

‘So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them’ Genesis 1: 27

To begin comprehending the image of God, we must turn to the Bible. There is much said throughout the scriptures about living in God’s image and His likeness, which is fundamentally, what being a Human is all about, or at least the sort of Human God intended for us to be!

Now, it is more common for us to consider living in God’s image and likeness to be the fundamental aspect of what being a Christian is all about, ultimately this is a profound truth as Christ, in all of His glory came to earth to remind us of what this truly meant, a true signifier of how Humans live in God’s image and likeness.

It is often said that babies are born innocent and then become corrupted by the world as they grow and develop into adults. When we look at what the Bible says about this, we can see that this statement is extremely biblical. ‘You were blameless in your ways from the day you were created till wickedness found you’ Ezekial 28: 15. This was said to the king of Tyre. In our egocentric societies a lot people today have developed a sense of kingship, this sense of entitlement that causes such chaos in this beautiful and precious world.

It goes on, ‘Your heart became proud on account of your beauty, and you corrupted your wisdom because of your splendour. So I threw you to the earth; I made a spectacle of you before the kings’ Ezekial 28: 17. The words of God here really reflect the societies we have developed, particularly in the west which is known to be an individualistic culture. That tells us there is a lot of self-centred behaviour going on, the exact opposite of what Jesus came to, and continues to, teach us today!

This self-centred behaviour arises due to an imbalance in our hearts, minds and bodies, as that verse from Ezekial clearly highlights which is also supported by this week’s meditations from Centre for Action and Contemplation! In the verse this imbalance is clear in the first sentence, ‘Your heart became proud on account of your beauty and you lost your wisdom because of your splendour’. The imbalance for the king of Tyre is that there is much focus on the body and the obtainment of beauty, which has imbalanced his heart. He also offsets his wisdom because of his splendour which is defined as a state of being splendid, or to define something with beauty or impressive appearance.

The king of Tyre inevitably ended up humiliated and destroyed as this is God’s promise to us. ‘By your many sins and dishonest trade you have desecrated your sanctuaries. So I made a fire come out from you, and it consumed you, and I reduced you to ashes on the ground in the sight of all who were watching. All the nations who knew you are appalled at you; you have come to a horrible end and will be no more.’ Ezekial 28: 18-19.

It is not God’s wish for us to come to this end, it is His wish for us to live in His image and likeness and return to His Kingdom! To do this we have to bring ourselves back to centre and find that much needed balance between our heart, mind and body. Looking to Jesus our Saviour and walking with Christ provides much that we need to maintain this balance, however, complacency can hinder diligence, so be vigilant, meditate regularly, pray and worship, remain humble, seek spiritual guidance, live in faith, utilise the fruits of the spirit and above all remember; ‘A new commandment I give to you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must Love one another.’ John 13: 34!

The Bible verses referenced are from the NIV bible.

Jesus has my heart.

One of the blogs I posted recently, Just what I needed, I wrote towards the end, ‘I don’t actually identify with any religion myself, but I do have a deep understanding about the notion of God.’. In such a short time, mostly in the experience of the sense of love that comes with opening your heart up to Jesus, my perspective on this sentence has changed dramatically.

Let me dissect this for you a little, and hopefully bring you to a deeper understanding of the life changing transition I have been going through and why it is vitally important we all begin such transitions, sooner rather than later.

The first part of the sentence I want to focus on is the first two words, ‘I don’t’. One of the most ongoing discussions throughout all of the ages has been the philosophical/psychological question of, who am ‘I’, or, who is this ‘I’ I speak of, essentially, what is that makes me, me. I am not going to even begin to break that down in this blog as I could, and will, write a book about such things at some later stage in this life. So for now, I will say in short that the make up of ‘I’ is filled with a lot of variables and complex processes that  create our identities. Our identities are made up of all of the things we identify with, or don’t identify with perhaps. The reason for such identification is complex of course, however, in a nutshell, it is made up from our moral, social, psychological, political and spiritual understanding of the world.

When I said, ‘ I don’t actually identify with any religion myself’, what I was saying there is, I chose not to identify with any religion because I was, like so many more millions of people, led to believe all the dogma and wrong doings that have happened all around the world in the name of a religion, and in this case Christianity. Why would I want to identify with a religion that has condoned war? What about the shocking cases of paedophilia within the Church? When stories like this are common knowledge, it is very easy for people to generalise such events and impose these views on Christianity as whole. It was even easier for me to not identify with any religion as the rebellious version of me was still present, clinging on to me by the threads of my hair.

However, something happened at Hope Church Thetford, I realised the truth in Jesus Christ, and have since been discovering even more mind-blowing truths about the Son of God. If we look at the whole sentence, ‘I don’t actually identify with any religion myself, but I do have a deep understanding about the notion of God.’, we can see in the second half of the sentence that I have an understanding of God. This understanding has only been confirmed and re-solidified by opening the doors of my heart to Jesus, in which there is only space for him, and one other when God permits, but foremost my heart is now home to our Saviour.

A huge part of this acceptance has been looking upon Jesus in awe, I see a man who was able to perform miracles as he was free from ego, which allowed him to dance and play so effortlessly in Our Fathers playground, the quantum field. Any body who wishes to explore the quantum field I highly recommend Dr Joe Dispenza, and allow him to give you a simplified breakdown of such phenomenon or seek out his documentary series Rewired on Gaia. How did Jesus know of a field of energy, that is only recently coming into light through scientific discovery, 2020 years ago? He is the Son of God, God Incarnate, only The Creator of this miraculous universe could have known such secrets and use them so selflessly that he would sacrifice his own life, and through his blood and his blood alone,  allow us to be saved from our sins and be forgiven and anointed by His Holy Spirit of which he left for us.

This made me reflect my own life and my own identity and all of the things I once identified with, and things I didn’t identify with, and I was able to begin breaking down the walls and shed layers of my ego that has controlled me so much throughout my life. Now looking upon Jesus and realising that this man sacrificed his own life for me, I was able to begin making sacrifices of my own, some easier than others.

When we meet somebody in our lives that we resonate with like nobody else we have ever met, or could possibly ever meet, naturally, the desire to be together is extremely strong, especially when the feeling is mutual. Stepping out of ‘my’ own shoes in such a situation is most certainly not something I would have found easy when placing high importance on my desires. However, sacrifices must be made, and the sacrifice of our desires is certainly a starting point. The depths of such resonance are hard to understand, however, when such beautiful experiences are placed in the hands of The Lord, we can only know that he will see to it as he wishes.

The man who is writing this blog is an extremely different one from the man who wrote the first blog back on the 11th March 2018. I have gone through a lot of changes over the years, I began deep work on my ego in 2017 where I was blessed to discover Bill Plotkin, a depth psychologist I have mentioned in previous blogs. His work is truly profound and it gave me, and continues to give me, new insights to the dimensions of my own identity and ego. At the start of last year I was in Australia at Happy Buddha Retreats and I began my journey with dreadlocks. This was something I wasn’t sure I would ever do, while growing my hair out people would ask if i was going to get them dreaded and I would always say no. Something to do with rebelling against conformity I suppose, however, I had a dream one night where I had dreadlocks so I decided to roll with it, and I am so glad I did as I learned an awful lot in the year that I had them.

The projection of beauty is certainly an interesting topic to discuss, which I wont go into right now, perhaps I could write another blog on such a subject some other time. Right now, it is relevant because once I had began opening my heart up to Christ and realising who He is, a man free from ego, I began introspectively questioning how my dreadlocks were serving me and what is it that these fibres attached to my head were projecting to others. Okay, they might of looked good, but what else did they say about me? I mean, there is a certain level of symbolism and stereotyping that goes on when it concerns people with dreadlocks, the number one thing that springs to mind is drug use, mainly cannabis. Once upon a time, this would have been an extremely accurate projection of myself, along with all of the other drugs I used to indulge in when I was fanatical about festivals. However, that is not who I am anymore, and not something I wished to identify with any longer. It is safe to say, the dreadlocks are no more and it is amazing how liberated I feel because of such a simple change. I feel freed from all of these older versions of myself, that as I said before were clinging on to me by the threads of my hair.

This transition has taken me by surprise, it is incredible that my whole life view was shattered in an instant, all because I opened my heart up to Jesus. The feeling of love and peace I have felt ever since this monumental moment is overwhelming, and I pray that more of us can drop the defences of our ego’s for just a moment to try to understand the truth in Christ, and allow for themselves to, like me, be forgiven for all of their sins and begin walking the path of righteousness. What have we got to lose but our old identities that are rooted in sin? What have we got to gain other than eternal life that is rooted in love! I know which path I’d prefer to walk.

A will take this time to note that, I am not claiming we will be free from ego when we open our hearts up to Jesus Christ, shedding layers of our ego’s is a very deep work which is not undergone lightly. It will inevitably shake our entire beings down to our cores and cause a flooding of emotion and  likely depression when we wake up to the destructiveness of such a phenomenon. What I will claim is that, this journey will be made a lot easier under the protection and guidance of The Holy Spirit.

Where does that leave me now? I don’t know, and there is a beauty in not knowing, but what I do know, is that my heart belongs to Jesus Christ and that He is somebody that I will happily identify with, for he surpasses any other man to have ever walked this earth. This is solidified in his selfless sacrifice, of which he made for me, and you, and that is why, all of the glory be to God. Amen.


The Importance of Desires

Buenos dias!

Something that has been coming up a lot lately is the importance of desires. Why is it we put such importance on our desires? What measures do we go to to achieve these desires? Is there an alternative way of approaching desire, one that doesn’t leave us face to face with the unhappiness we experience when our desires are not fulfilled? These are just a few questions that come to mind when considering my own desires.

To begin with, I believe we put such importance on our desires due to the effects social conditioning has had on the dynamics of our culture. A culture that is solely based on consumption and the idea that this consumption generates happiness. So what is it that we are likely to desire in this cultural dynamic? A new car, new house, new partner, new job? This is all well and good, but again, why is it that we put such importance on these desires, as if what we already have isn’t good enough, which as I said before, is likely due to the effects of social conditioning. Does that mean we are conditioned to feel inadequate, like we are not good enough, like we need to improve ourselves and the way to do this, as advertisement so regularly suggests, is to desire new things or relationships with others.

This is seemingly unavoidable as we are born into this cultural narrative, meaning we are conditioned from a very young age to desire the things we haven’t got. How far are we willing to go to satisfy these desires, what extremities must we endure to achieve the desired outcome, whatever that might be? I met a guy once who continued working a job for over two years, where he would have a panic attack most days at work as he absolutely hated the job, just so he could upkeep his social image, his car, his apartment, his television etc. He was so conditioned to believe that all of these external projections of his social status were absolutely essential to his happiness and feeling successful based on these material objects. Although this is absolutely insane, it is something I have been subject to in the past myself. That may seem to be an extreme example, however, it is a very real scenario in which people face in today’s society. Ready for the paradox of all of this, we endure unhappiness to achieve happiness?

Now we can ask, is there an alternative approach to achieving our desires? Do we actually already have everything we need contained in our bags of skin as Alan Watts so rightly describes us? If so, how do we bypass our desires and access this abundant happiness?

The alternative approach to our desires is to let go of them completely, or at least letting go of the importance of them. A part of the conditioning is that we place such importance on our desires and we become so attached to the perceived outcome that we end up in the paradox described above. Something that is not practised much in the Western world is the power of detachment, not just the detachment to our material world in a physical sense but more importantly, the detachment of the ideas we formulate in our minds of how we can be happy within a material world. It is the attachment to these ideas that lead us in to the undesirable paradox. Happiness is an emotion, energy in motion, it will only ever be temporary, this is a huge part of the human condition.

The way around the human condition, that is to identify with our experience and label all that comes to pass is to begin a regular practise of stillness, of silence, of meditation. I am not claiming to be an expert in this field, but I do know from experience that when we regularly enter this space of awareness we bring ourselves back down into our true selves, the way God intended for us to be. It is in this place we can begin making informed decisions that are centred in our hearts, and not our heads. When we make our primary objective to commune with God in the silence of our hearts, we naturally let go of all of our other desires entirely. It is not to say we cannot still pursue our desires, instead we begin doing so from a much calmer and accepting place, a place that has transcended mind, a place that does not place such importance in the pursuit. This happens as we become aware of the ultimate truth, God has provided us with all that we need to survive in unity with one another, a unity that only exists when we all live from our hearts, and not our heads.

We would all agree that living in unity with one another is the most desirable outcome for all who are graced to live in this beautiful world, so let us all rejoice in letting go and detaching ourselves from our desires and allow our hearts to take the steering wheels of our lives. Allow them to steer us back into The Kingdom of God. Amen

Divine Guidance

Throughout my life I have always done a lot of deep reflection, reflection as to who I am, what the experiences I have lived through have meant and how am I to utilise these and continue the journey of evolution, growth and transformation. I have moved a lot in my life and each time I have lived somewhere new I always have so much to reflect on, what this reflection does is it allows me to shed old layers of my ego that are no longer serving me, layers that may be, holding me back. Even though I make a lot of progress with this and further my own understanding as to the depths of myself, I am always reminded that I am human and I will have set-backs that leave me in an old-state of being.

One day earlier this year I had a set-back, after a three-day binge on vodka (something I hadn’t done for four years at the time) I was recoiling in my bed needing an escape. I swiftly jumped on Helpx and for the first time searched Permaculture for a host within the UK! It was in this moment that a divine intervention occurred and I was graced to find Finchams Farm. After reading the listing, I knew in my heart that I was meant to go there so I contacted Bridget immediately! We exchanged some messages and kept missing each other whenever we tried to phone but eventually we had a lovely conversation and it was arranged that I would be able to come and volunteer.

What is absolutely incredible about this situation, and living proof that we can create our own realities, is that a year prior to my arrival I was applying for the Schumacher College. In my application I was asked what I wished to achieve by undertaking their 6-month practical residency course, my answer in short was so I could create a Permaculture design program that would be used in rehabilitation programs for people recovering from addictions and other mental health disorders. This was because of the way it re-connects us with people, place and purpose through Permacultures way of being; Earth Care, People Care and Fair Share.

As crazy as it was, but I ended up removing my application from the college even though it seemed the stars had aligned and it was written that I would go to the college, I did this as I ended up on a spontaneous trip to Australia setting up a Permaculture garden for the delightful Happy Buddha Retreats in the Blue Mountains west of Sydney! It now seems I did this as God, Universal Christ, The Universe, or whatever pronoun you wish to use to describe the mysterious and providential occurrences that happen all around us in the miraculous existence that life is, had a different plan for me. For Finchams Farm is everything I had desired to create by going to the Schumacher College! Thou ask and thou shall receive, cause if we believe, we shall achieve!

Life on the farm has been absolutely incredible, it is extremely exciting to be a part of this project and working so closely with the residents here! Another aspect that I am extremely grateful for is the space I have been provided with as this has really allowed me to release the rebel within and step into the world of academia by studying a Psychology degree with The Open University! Finding time for my studies around the twenty hours of volunteer work has been easily managed as Bridget and the trustees offer total support!

I can honestly say that each day here is different, the range of tasks that are to be done on a small holding seems to be never ending! The grounds are huge and the gardens are glorious so outdoor work is never in short supply! However, rainy days permits me to be in the kitchen utilising my skills preparing breads and other delightful treats for us all here!

Bridget and the trustees have allowed me to create a workshop that I run with the residents here, the workshop is aimed at offering them a new way of viewing the world and their lives. Giving them an insight to meditation and the power of presence and prayer allowing them to re-create themselves and move away form their old states of being! So far this has been very well received by the residents and they have given me good feedback!

I have spent my time this autumn creating a much needed website for the project, the very website you may have found this blog through. This is something I have dedicated a lot of my time to recently as it is super important for us to grow and develop as a non-profit charitable organisation! We hope that this new website will attract more people towards what we do here at Finchams Farm!

I want to take this time to say thank you to Bridget and all involved for making my welcome here so warm and special and I also want to thank everybody at Hope Church, Thetford, and the new found family I have discovered there, my heart goes out to each and every one of you!

I know I am where I need to be right now for it is written in Gods plan, however, at the beginning I was continuously pulled back in towards the freedom of the nomadic lifestyle. What I am noticing is that the more I fall in love with Finchams Farm, and the people that surround me here, the lure of travel is slowly dissipating and I am becoming more grounded than ever before. I have so much to love to give and to be able to give it to this beautiful space and people, means the world. I am excited to see what is to come and what else I am going to be able to bring into this space!





Awakening Spirit, Deepening Soul

I do not even know where to begin with this blog! I have so many thoughts buzzing around my head that it is very hard for me to begin elaborating them in a beautifully scripted post that I hope will inspire and touch people as they are all seemingly incomprehensible right now! However, I will do my best to articulate my thought patterns, which right now I am not sure are even mine, and paint an image of promise and hope!

I will begin by discussing what I mean by Awakening Spirit. For me, this means saying yes to life, saying thanks and expressing gratitude for the opportunity to awaken to this miraculous landscape, allowing faith to flood our lives and take us on the deepest of journeys that will inevitably heal us from the inside out, and also allowing ourselves to open up to our vulnerabilities and begin exploring the depths of our emotional selves.

What happens when we do begin to awaken our spirits is that we have an encounter with our souls. I will come back to this, as I want to first throw some ideas out there of how we can make this possible, and for me, why it is important.

To start with I invite you to relax and close down your eyes and allow all of your focus to fall on your breathing, the inhalation of your breath and the rising of your chest, followed by, the exhalation and the falling of your chest. Find a rhythm and be present with it, take a few moments to honour that space, and know, that this space exists in a continuum and is always readily available for us us to enter and simply just, be. After all, being is a fundamental part of being a human being.

This small practice is a tiny step into the deep fathoms of meditation which is one of the oldest spiritual practices known to us. This practice doesn’t continue to reach us over thousands of years by chance, no, it is a gift, one we must hold onto and cherish. I see meditation as an opportunity to honour ourselves , and in turn, honour the totality of life.

What meditation brings into my life, as it does for so many others, is clarity. With this clarity of thought we can begin to allow our minds to open and allow new light to seep between the cracks we begin to expose, giving us a whole new perspective as to what our purpose might be and a new found awareness to our humanness.

This is important on so many levels, particularly in a time where division prevails over unity! The age old dynamic of us and them is toxic, and for me, a new found awareness of our humanness is exactly what we need to begin breaking down this old worldview, that has become so deeply rooted into our beings and everyday lives through centuries of conditioning that has made us buy into the idea that there really is, an us and a them.

When we awaken our spirit and begin exploring the truths found in spiritual practices, whether it be a simple practice of meditation or devotional worship to Jesus or any other religion we so wish to explore, what we do is we start realising the toxicity of the dynamic of us and them.

Then what starts coming up to the surface is our restless souls, of which, tend to have been neglected as we have allowed our lives to be saturated with egocentric behaviour patterns that enforce that old dynamic. When we begin to deepen our encounters with our souls, we are reminded of and shown one of our most beautiful and treasured aspects of our human divinities, empathy.

I am not going to sit here and pretend that deepening our relationships with our souls is an easy journey, however, it is a worthy one. When we rekindle our relationships with our truly empathetic selves we will face a time of deep sadness and pain, pain that isn’t even just of our own, but the entire global population. This is a natural process, it is also a time for us to say thank you to the aspects of our nature that have prevented us from feeling this pain throughout our lives, and honourably insist that our newly, spiritually transformed selves will take control of our emotional lives.

We do this so we can feel deeply into each other and begin laying new foundations for our souls to become the way makers of our lives. We do this as all of our souls are not just a single entity that is to be experienced on an individual level, no, we do this as our souls are intertwined and have been woven together since the unfolding of the universe began.

What I have come to understand recently, through deepening my own journey to my soul and enriching my life with the scriptures of the bible and regular meditation, is that we have always been and always will be, in the hands of God. When we open up to this faith and universal truth, no matter what your interpretation of God might be, we begin the much needed process of Awakening our Spirits and allowing them to guide us on our journeys deep into the soul of the world.

The reason this is a worthy journey is because there is so much beauty in compassion, love and empathy that it will truly allow us to love thy neighbour and begin taking down the fences in our gardens, removing the borders in our countries as we open our hearts up to each other and the world and prevent the division as we all unite as a species that has the ability to be with one another.

Just what I needed!

Sometimes, life can seriously get the better of us, particularly in this artificial landscape where we have become so saturated by this superficiality that we deem so important. It’s so easy to forget about what truly matters to us as we allow our minds to take full control and chaotically drag us around like a runaway train. I mean, at least that’s how I feel sometimes, more so now than ever before as I transition from full-time nomad to full-time student. The relentless pull back towards the undeniably blissful experience that being on the road in an unknown land, in an unknown culture and walking an unknown path, is.

Anybody who knows me would tell you that I am such a positive and vibrant person who only ever sees the best in life, as if I viewed life through lenses made of diamonds. It is absolutely true for the most part, however, sometimes lenses can become foggy and need cleaning. After all, I am human, just like you, and feel every emotion we have the ability to experience on this earthly plain. Which means that sometimes the energy in motion I am feeling may well be sadness, loneliness, anger, or even very sporadically, depression. Believe it or not, I am grateful for these times as there is always a lesson and an opportunity for development, it also brings about balance when we are living in duality; it makes the experience human.

When I sit with these emotions and be present with them instead of masking the symptoms by numbing my mind, or as I have done my whole life; ran away from them, they tell me what I need most. Normally, I realise I have entered into that superficial state and just need to bring myself back to the centre of my being, ground myself, breathe deep and listen to the sounds of my heart as it plays out its own rhythm. This time, whilst I listened intently, positive affirmations on repeat in my mind, I knew what I needed, I needed that tribal connection, a sense of community and belonging that has been neglected in our societies for quite sometime throughout the years of industry and technology.

As much a there is a certain sense of community living here in the graceful presence of Bridget, volunteering for Finchams Farm Turnaround Stays, I still needed something more. After about two weeks of this feeling of uncertainty, I woke up this morning, did my affirmations and I felt called to go to church with Bridget. I didn’t hesitate once, I immediately got myself ready and told Bridget I would be joining her.

On arrival to Hope Church, Thetford, we had a cup of tea and got straight into singing songs of worship. The first song nearly had me in tears, I was so happy to be there and so thankful to myself for listening to that intuitive voice and going along! I hadn’t been to church for a very longtime, in fact, I am not sure I ever really went to church as it carries a certain stigma which I  now think is absolutely detrimental to the development of our communities as the connection to spirit is a huge part of living a healthy and fulfilling life!

Just being there, with all of these other people, just ordinary beings, like you and I, singing songs of praise, felt incredible. In that there is community, in that there is belonging, in that I see, deeply rooted, a connection to tribe, a connection that has been severed for so many of us, a connection we could all do with re-connecting to to bring about a certain sense of peace, a much needed dimension for all of us on this planet.

I do understand that most people may feel like this isn’t for them as they are not religious, I felt like that for a long time as well until I realised that there was so much more to it than just religion. I don’t actually identify with any religion myself, but I do have a deep understanding about the notion of God. God is a powerful word and in itself carries a stigma, I understand now that God is subjective to the individual and is heavily dependant on personal interpretation. Who am I to judge others and their interpretations, and why should I let that deter me from experiencing such powerful, binding moments of unity. It is safe to say that going to church was just what I needed, and it is most definitely going to be something I will be doing on a weekly basis from this day forth as it really is, nurturing.DSC_0198