Awakening Spirit, Deepening Soul

I do not even know where to begin with this blog! I have so many thoughts buzzing around my head that it is very hard for me to begin elaborating them in a beautifully scripted post that I hope will inspire and touch people as they are all seemingly incomprehensible right now! However, I will do my best to articulate my thought patterns, which right now I am not sure are even mine, and paint an image of promise and hope!

I will begin by discussing what I mean by Awakening Spirit. For me, this means saying yes to life, saying thanks and expressing gratitude for the opportunity to awaken to this miraculous landscape, allowing faith to flood our lives and take us on the deepest of journeys that will inevitably heal us from the inside out, and also allowing ourselves to open up to our vulnerabilities and begin exploring the depths of our emotional selves.

What happens when we do begin to awaken our spirits is that we have an encounter with our souls. I will come back to this, as I want to first throw some ideas out there of how we can make this possible, and for me, why it is important.

To start with I invite you to relax and close down your eyes and allow all of your focus to fall on your breathing, the inhalation of your breath and the rising of your chest, followed by, the exhalation and the falling of your chest. Find a rhythm and be present with it, take a few moments to honour that space, and know, that this space exists in a continuum and is always readily available for us us to enter and simply just, be. After all, being is a fundamental part of being a human being.

This small practice is a tiny step into the deep fathoms of meditation which is one of the oldest spiritual practices known to us. This practice doesn’t continue to reach us over thousands of years by chance, no, it is a gift, one we must hold onto and cherish. I see meditation as an opportunity to honour ourselves , and in turn, honour the totality of life.

What meditation brings into my life, as it does for so many others, is clarity. With this clarity of thought we can begin to allow our minds to open and allow new light to seep between the cracks we begin to expose, giving us a whole new perspective as to what our purpose might be and a new found awareness to our humanness.

This is important on so many levels, particularly in a time where division prevails over unity! The age old dynamic of us and them is toxic, and for me, a new found awareness of our humanness is exactly what we need to begin breaking down this old worldview, that has become so deeply rooted into our beings and everyday lives through centuries of conditioning that has made us buy into the idea that there really is, an us and a them.

When we awaken our spirit and begin exploring the truths found in spiritual practices, whether it be a simple practice of meditation or devotional worship to Jesus or any other religion we so wish to explore, what we do is we start realising the toxicity of the dynamic of us and them.

Then what starts coming up to the surface is our restless souls, of which, tend to have been neglected as we have allowed our lives to be saturated with egocentric behaviour patterns that enforce that old dynamic. When we begin to deepen our encounters with our souls, we are reminded of and shown one of our most beautiful and treasured aspects of our human divinities, empathy.

I am not going to sit here and pretend that deepening our relationships with our souls is an easy journey, however, it is a worthy one. When we rekindle our relationships with our truly empathetic selves we will face a time of deep sadness and pain, pain that isn’t even just of our own, but the entire global population. This is a natural process, it is also a time for us to say thank you to the aspects of our nature that have prevented us from feeling this pain throughout our lives, and honourably insist that our newly, spiritually transformed selves will take control of our emotional lives.

We do this so we can feel deeply into each other and begin laying new foundations for our souls to become the way makers of our lives. We do this as all of our souls are not just a single entity that is to be experienced on an individual level, no, we do this as our souls are intertwined and have been woven together since the unfolding of the universe began.

What I have come to understand recently, through deepening my own journey to my soul and enriching my life with the scriptures of the bible and regular meditation, is that we have always been and always will be, in the hands of God. When we open up to this faith and universal truth, no matter what your interpretation of God might be, we begin the much needed process of Awakening our Spirits and allowing them to guide us on our journeys deep into the soul of the world.

The reason this is a worthy journey is because there is so much beauty in compassion, love and empathy that it will truly allow us to love thy neighbour and begin taking down the fences in our gardens, removing the borders in our countries as we open our hearts up to each other and the world and prevent the division as we all unite as a species that has the ability to be with one another.

Just what I needed!

Sometimes, life can seriously get the better of us, particularly in thisĀ artificial landscape where we have become so saturated by this superficiality that we deem so important. It’s so easy to forget about what truly matters to us as we allow our minds to take full control and chaotically drag us around like a runaway train. I mean, at least that’s how I feel sometimes, more so now than ever before as I transition from full-time nomad to full-time student. The relentless pull back towards the undeniably blissful experience that being on the road in an unknown land, in an unknown culture and walking an unknown path, is.

Anybody who knows me would tell you that I am such a positive and vibrant person who only ever sees the best in life, as if I viewed life through lenses made of diamonds. It is absolutely true for the most part, however, sometimes lenses can become foggy and need cleaning. After all, I am human, just like you, and feel every emotion we have the ability to experience on this earthly plain. Which means that sometimes the energy in motion I am feeling may well be sadness, loneliness, anger, or even very sporadically, depression. Believe it or not, I am grateful for these times as there is always a lesson and an opportunity for development, it also brings about balance when we are living in duality; it makes the experience human.

When I sit with these emotions and be present with them instead of masking the symptoms by numbing my mind, or as I have done my whole life; ran away from them, they tell me what I need most. Normally, I realise I have entered into that superficial state and just need to bring myself back to the centre of my being, ground myself, breathe deep and listen to the sounds of my heart as it plays out its own rhythm. This time, whilst I listened intently, positive affirmations on repeat in my mind, I knew what I needed, I needed that tribal connection, a sense of community and belonging that has been neglected in our societies for quite sometime throughout the years of industry and technology.

As much a there is a certain sense of community living here in the graceful presence of Bridget, volunteering for Finchams Farm Turnaround Stays, I still needed something more. After about two weeks of this feeling of uncertainty, I woke up this morning, did my affirmations and I felt called to go to church with Bridget. I didn’t hesitate once, I immediately got myself ready and told Bridget I would be joining her.

On arrival to Hope Church, Thetford, we had a cup of tea and got straight into singing songs of worship. The first song nearly had me in tears, I was so happy to be there and so thankful to myself for listening to that intuitive voice and going along! I hadn’t been to church for a very longtime, in fact, I am not sure I ever really went to church as it carries a certain stigma which IĀ  now think is absolutely detrimental to the development of our communities as the connection to spirit is a huge part of living a healthy and fulfilling life!

Just being there, with all of these other people, just ordinary beings, like you and I, singing songs of praise, felt incredible. In that there is community, in that there is belonging, in that I see, deeply rooted, a connection to tribe, a connection that has been severed for so many of us, a connection we could all do with re-connecting to to bring about a certain sense of peace, a much needed dimension for all of us on this planet.

I do understand that most people may feel like this isn’t for them as they are not religious, I felt like that for a long time as well until I realised that there was so much more to it than just religion. I don’t actually identify with any religion myself, but I do have a deep understanding about the notion of God. God is a powerful word and in itself carries a stigma, I understand now that God is subjective to the individual and is heavily dependant on personal interpretation. Who am I to judge others and their interpretations, and why should I let that deter me from experiencing such powerful, binding moments of unity. It is safe to say that going to church was just what I needed, and it is most definitely going to be something I will be doing on a weekly basis from this day forth as it really is, nurturing.DSC_0198