The Importance of Desires

Buenos dias!

Something that has been coming up a lot lately is the importance of desires. Why is it we put such importance on our desires? What measures do we go to to achieve these desires? Is there an alternative way of approaching desire, one that doesn’t leave us face to face with the unhappiness we experience when our desires are not fulfilled? These are just a few questions that come to mind when considering my own desires.

To begin with, I believe we put such importance on our desires due to the effects social conditioning has had on the dynamics of our culture. A culture that is solely based on consumption and the idea that this consumption generates happiness. So what is it that we are likely to desire in this cultural dynamic? A new car, new house, new partner, new job? This is all well and good, but again, why is it that we put such importance on these desires, as if what we already have isn’t good enough, which as I said before, is likely due to the effects of social conditioning. Does that mean we are conditioned to feel inadequate, like we are not good enough, like we need to improve ourselves and the way to do this, as advertisement so regularly suggests, is to desire new things or relationships with others.

This is seemingly unavoidable as we are born into this cultural narrative, meaning we are conditioned from a very young age to desire the things we haven’t got. How far are we willing to go to satisfy these desires, what extremities must we endure to achieve the desired outcome, whatever that might be? I met a guy once who continued working a job for over two years, where he would have a panic attack most days at work as he absolutely hated the job, just so he could upkeep his social image, his car, his apartment, his television etc. He was so conditioned to believe that all of these external projections of his social status were absolutely essential to his happiness and feeling successful based on these material objects. Although this is absolutely insane, it is something I have been subject to in the past myself. That may seem to be an extreme example, however, it is a very real scenario in which people face in today’s society. Ready for the paradox of all of this, we endure unhappiness to achieve happiness?

Now we can ask, is there an alternative approach to achieving our desires? Do we actually already have everything we need contained in our bags of skin as Alan Watts so rightly describes us? If so, how do we bypass our desires and access this abundant happiness?

The alternative approach to our desires is to let go of them completely, or at least letting go of the importance of them. A part of the conditioning is that we place such importance on our desires and we become so attached to the perceived outcome that we end up in the paradox described above. Something that is not practised much in the Western world is the power of detachment, not just the detachment to our material world in a physical sense but more importantly, the detachment of the ideas we formulate in our minds of how we can be happy within a material world. It is the attachment to these ideas that lead us in to the undesirable paradox. Happiness is an emotion, energy in motion, it will only ever be temporary, this is a huge part of the human condition.

The way around the human condition, that is to identify with our experience and label all that comes to pass is to begin a regular practise of stillness, of silence, of meditation. I am not claiming to be an expert in this field, but I do know from experience that when we regularly enter this space of awareness we bring ourselves back down into our true selves, the way God intended for us to be. It is in this place we can begin making informed decisions that are centred in our hearts, and not our heads. When we make our primary objective to commune with God in the silence of our hearts, we naturally let go of all of our other desires entirely. It is not to say we cannot still pursue our desires, instead we begin doing so from a much calmer and accepting place, a place that has transcended mind, a place that does not place such importance in the pursuit. This happens as we become aware of the ultimate truth, God has provided us with all that we need to survive in unity with one another, a unity that only exists when we all live from our hearts, and not our heads.

We would all agree that living in unity with one another is the most desirable outcome for all who are graced to live in this beautiful world, so let us all rejoice in letting go and detaching ourselves from our desires and allow our hearts to take the steering wheels of our lives. Allow them to steer us back into The Kingdom of God. Amen

Awakening Spirit, Deepening Soul

I do not even know where to begin with this blog! I have so many thoughts buzzing around my head that it is very hard for me to begin elaborating them in a beautifully scripted post that I hope will inspire and touch people as they are all seemingly incomprehensible right now! However, I will do my best to articulate my thought patterns, which right now I am not sure are even mine, and paint an image of promise and hope!

I will begin by discussing what I mean by Awakening Spirit. For me, this means saying yes to life, saying thanks and expressing gratitude for the opportunity to awaken to this miraculous landscape, allowing faith to flood our lives and take us on the deepest of journeys that will inevitably heal us from the inside out, and also allowing ourselves to open up to our vulnerabilities and begin exploring the depths of our emotional selves.

What happens when we do begin to awaken our spirits is that we have an encounter with our souls. I will come back to this, as I want to first throw some ideas out there of how we can make this possible, and for me, why it is important.

To start with I invite you to relax and close down your eyes and allow all of your focus to fall on your breathing, the inhalation of your breath and the rising of your chest, followed by, the exhalation and the falling of your chest. Find a rhythm and be present with it, take a few moments to honour that space, and know, that this space exists in a continuum and is always readily available for us us to enter and simply just, be. After all, being is a fundamental part of being a human being.

This small practice is a tiny step into the deep fathoms of meditation which is one of the oldest spiritual practices known to us. This practice doesn’t continue to reach us over thousands of years by chance, no, it is a gift, one we must hold onto and cherish. I see meditation as an opportunity to honour ourselves , and in turn, honour the totality of life.

What meditation brings into my life, as it does for so many others, is clarity. With this clarity of thought we can begin to allow our minds to open and allow new light to seep between the cracks we begin to expose, giving us a whole new perspective as to what our purpose might be and a new found awareness to our humanness.

This is important on so many levels, particularly in a time where division prevails over unity! The age old dynamic of us and them is toxic, and for me, a new found awareness of our humanness is exactly what we need to begin breaking down this old worldview, that has become so deeply rooted into our beings and everyday lives through centuries of conditioning that has made us buy into the idea that there really is, an us and a them.

When we awaken our spirit and begin exploring the truths found in spiritual practices, whether it be a simple practice of meditation or devotional worship to Jesus or any other religion we so wish to explore, what we do is we start realising the toxicity of the dynamic of us and them.

Then what starts coming up to the surface is our restless souls, of which, tend to have been neglected as we have allowed our lives to be saturated with egocentric behaviour patterns that enforce that old dynamic. When we begin to deepen our encounters with our souls, we are reminded of and shown one of our most beautiful and treasured aspects of our human divinities, empathy.

I am not going to sit here and pretend that deepening our relationships with our souls is an easy journey, however, it is a worthy one. When we rekindle our relationships with our truly empathetic selves we will face a time of deep sadness and pain, pain that isn’t even just of our own, but the entire global population. This is a natural process, it is also a time for us to say thank you to the aspects of our nature that have prevented us from feeling this pain throughout our lives, and honourably insist that our newly, spiritually transformed selves will take control of our emotional lives.

We do this so we can feel deeply into each other and begin laying new foundations for our souls to become the way makers of our lives. We do this as all of our souls are not just a single entity that is to be experienced on an individual level, no, we do this as our souls are intertwined and have been woven together since the unfolding of the universe began.

What I have come to understand recently, through deepening my own journey to my soul and enriching my life with the scriptures of the bible and regular meditation, is that we have always been and always will be, in the hands of God. When we open up to this faith and universal truth, no matter what your interpretation of God might be, we begin the much needed process of Awakening our Spirits and allowing them to guide us on our journeys deep into the soul of the world.

The reason this is a worthy journey is because there is so much beauty in compassion, love and empathy that it will truly allow us to love thy neighbour and begin taking down the fences in our gardens, removing the borders in our countries as we open our hearts up to each other and the world and prevent the division as we all unite as a species that has the ability to be with one another.

Let Me Inspire You #1

Birmingham Airport

02.10.2018 18:07


Firstly let me welcome you all to my page and to my new series of blogs, Let Me Inspire You!

It feels good to be waiting for my flight, I am excited to be heading back into Spain to continue my research in Permaculture, ecological living and alternative communities. I have just spent the last five months knee deep in a capatlistic stomping ground working for Butlins, which has been a difficult time for my empathetic soul.

However, I have come out of there even more determined than ever to pave a way into a more sustainable future for our species!

That is why, this is the most excited I have ever been before disembarking on a journey! I am excited; to share all of the experiences I will go on, all of the places I will visit, all the people I will stay with; I am excited for what I will find on this adventure, in the mountains, in the rivers, in the earth; I am excited to venture further into the wonders of sustainable living, spirituality, mindfulness and the human psyche!

As you will have noticed I have listed a few things at the top, the place I am writing the blog, the date and time it was written and my financial situation.

I think it is important that I be transparent with my readers in regards to my finances, it will give you a deeper understanding of how to be a smarter traveller and months into my trip you will see how I manage to travel such distances with such little budget! Or maybe not, who knows!!!

So my first location will be at Hidden Paradise, it is a centre for spirituality in the mountainous regions of southern Spain in a town called Órgiva! They offer Yoga and Meditation retreats, shamanic practises and more! I will be working in the kitchen catering for the guests who are attending the upcoming course!

I am required to stay for a minimum of four weeks, after this I hope to go to the canary islands as I have been in contact with a couple of hosts to work on some permaculture projects and spend time living within an eco community!

So please do keep reading and please Let Me Inspire You!

A Penny for your thoughts…

Coco and Penny

This is a tale of two dogs, Coco and Penny. They are the most adorable little chihuahuas, they make the best companions and together they melt hearts, particularly the hearts of our family, friends and now you!

The tale begins with Coco, he was so tiny when he was born, he could fit in the palm of my hand!

The handsome Coco

With everybody working all the time my mum decided Coco needed a friend to keep him company in the day. This is when we were blessed with bringing Penny, the most fragile of animals, home after she had been rescued.

Penny was ill treated for her entire life, she was force bred in a cage by some sick people who only cared about money! I find it interesting how this insignificant material turns people into greedy beings with no compassion towards who/what we are affecting with our behaviour.

Our precious Penny

Penny was so timid and frightened when she first came back to our loving household. She would often flinch, she would wee all over the house and she would occasionally have fits bought on from her traumatic start to life in the hands of them monsters!

These are things she still does occasionally, but we comfort her, we clean up after her and make sure she is showered with the love that all beings deserve!

It has been incredible watching Penny adapt to the daily routine of a dogs life in a loving home. How she has copied Coco in her attempt at learning how to behave in her new environment. Coco is a boy so he naturally cocks his leg when he goes to the toilet, penny is a girl and she will also, funnily, cock her leg!

Truly amazing to see such behaviour in another species. I ask myself how much stronger the influencial behaviourisms within our own adaptive species are in comparison to a dogs. Especially with the addition of speech to aid us in the learning process.

My mind works in a way that everything gets processed with depth, those who know me will understand this when they see my brain in action as it deciphers the puzzling world.

So I have to further ask myself why, when we can observe this behaviour in the life of dog, do we as a supposedly more intelligent being continue to behave in such destructive ways? This happens on all levels of society, particularly in the lower classes, which is where we observe characteristics from archetypes such as the wounded child, the escapist/addict, the rebel or the victim and more!

Since the dawning of Blue Planet 2 we have seen such a drastic change in our consciousness towards plastic pollution, this is amazing, it is so great to see the impact it is having in the UK and how the ripples are reaching the entire globe! When we all change our behaviour together, in unison, we send out a stronger message to the rest of the world. The power contained in a collective consciousness is unfathomable. It appeared we were starting to harness this power, together as a nation, as a species, to move in the right direction to actually begin rectifying the damage we have caused!

Then Easter came around and we all went out and bought lots of Easter eggs and other unnecessary commodities that the corporate elite push onto is in these false festive times. They continue to push these commodities onto us as we continue to buy them, and for the sake of what? Upholding a tradition that lost its truer deeper meaning within our colonial past.

You are probably thinking what has this got to do with my dogs? Well, after observing these two dogs grow together over the years and now to see Penny be the beautiful little dog she is today, it is so comforting! In this symbiotic relationship my dogs share, I observe some amazing characteristics, the same characteristics we all have inside us deep down. The possibilities when sentient beings are born and raised in a loving environment is incredible. What is even more incredible is when we take a sentient being from a chaotic environment and it manages to adapt to its environment and thrive with such joy. A clear sign that hope will forever exist.

One of the most significant reads of our times!

I do believe we can re connect with our truly sentient selves but we have a monstrous task of taking control of our egos and cultivating them in a way that is not just beneficial to ourselves, but is beneficial to our species as a whole.

I hear you, impulsive desires, I hear you.

I shall not act, I shall not act.

Understand why,

for the planet

is bigger than I.

Now remember, for every action there is a reaction. So act positively, love unconditionally, be respectful, be mindful and live in peace. We are in this together. Let us not make our next phase of evolution; extinction!

In the universe, I trust.

We all have to cross bridges in our lives.

It seems my time in Scotland is going to be short lived, yesterday I sustained an injury on my hypermobile hip joint while out walking. This is preventing me from working so it does not make sense for me to stay here especially if I cannot move my leg!

The walk the injury was developed on was filled with all the incredible beauty you would expect to see in the Highlands. The Scottish air is refreshingly crisp and being the only person for miles it is blissfully peaceful.

Remnants of an old pine forest.

The shrubs of heather stretch out as far as the eye can see, and amongst the foliage there is an assortment of wildlife awaiting to be seen. The rivers and streams meander over the land creating that luscious sound of continuously flowing water.

Our vital source of life crashing over rocks.

I love being out here alone and away from the societal issues we are faced with in these uncertain times. Out here in the hills, there is no judgement, just curious critters wondering who this strange 6ft 4in mammal is that walks on, not four, but two legs is!

I see Ewe…

The excitement I get when I am walking areas I have not explored before is the same excitement I get when I head to a new country or culture. It is about entering into the world of the unknown, where expectations are dissolved and disappointment non existent, a journey of discovery, internally and externally.

I can get carried away when I walk though, I never wish to stop, which is the way I felt about travelling once I began doing that in 2011.

I love staring into the darkness of a forest wondering what woodland creatures are contained within!

This walk is no exception. I decide, under the impression that I have work at 6, to walk through to Kingussie after seeing a sign stating it is three and a half miles away. I trek over streams, alongside forests, through heather and swamp until I reach Loch Gynack.

Loch Gynack.

This is a small loch in comparison to some of the other lochs I have been blessed to have laid eyes upon in this life, but just as majestic nonetheless. I continue the path through wilderness and woods until I reach a waypoint on the far side of the loch.

What to do?

It is here it dawns on me that, I got my start time mixed up and I am meant to be in at five. My heart desires to reach the top of Craeg Bheag as there is no better feeling than to reach the summit of a peak and stare out across the land you have just traversed.

I look to my clock and it is 15:10, I have an hour and ten minutes to make it back to Newtonmore. I do not linger long and decide I cannot deny my hearts wishes and begin my ascent immediately.

It is not long until I reach the top, I do not see a path heading down the other side and into Kingussie so I must go back the way I came. This time I must move with speed as it is now 15:30 and I am not sure on what time public transport in Kingussie heads to Newtonmore.

As it is my second shift I decide I cannot be late and begin my race against time. I start running down the side of the Craeg.

Long story short I made it for work, however, I decided to film this part of my adventure so you can watch the video ‘Better not be late’ on my YouTube channel Wandering Spirit. It is quite entertaining actually, I hope you enjoy it.

So last night I couldn’t sleep as the pain was unbearable, today I am unable to move my leg without having shooting and throbbing pains unleashed upon me. I have been to see a doctor who has said I need to rest it for a couple of weeks and then go back if it is still just as bad in a week.

Upon telling my employer he says it will just be best if I go home in this case, I watch the cloud roll in as, for me, this is financially tragic. I am not going to worry myself about my situation for there is no need, I know every cloud has a silver lining even if it is not made visible for an unknown period of time and for me that is the deepest reason as to why patience truly is a virtue.

Like many of times in the past, I put my trust in the universe for it is all I can do as I stare unemployment in the face again.

“I want to watch you courageously walk into the sunset…”

Now I think we all agree that we would all like to be more courageous. As a traveller of 6 years I have never come to short of courage. Courage to hit the road and re-discover myself, to break free from, as Bill Plotkin, a depth psychologist says, The Standard Game of Security Building.

This is a game we all play each and everyday by getting up and sticking to our normal routines. We do reach a sense of equilibrium within this game, however, we are never truly satisfied.

When we have been living the same life in the same place for so long, boredom will inevitably set in. That is your soul calling you to adventure, that is your soul trying to redirect you into your soul purpose.

We all have these callings. Some will simply make small changes in their lives to temporarily heal themselves without understanding what this reoccurring sensation truly is. Others might have an idea as to what this sensation is but still hide from and ignore this calling creating a deep sense of uncertainty.

This can go on for years until we finally decide to take the almighty leap of faith, or we might only realise what it was on our deathbed, and then it is to late. There is a lot of factors that go into our avoidance of this calling.

The main aspect in our Nature to avoid this comes from fear. “The Loyal Soldier” as Bill Plotkin so accurately describes it, is a part of our psyches that is developed within our childhoods. It is a mechanism that is designed to protect us and keep is in our secure environments, like it has done for most of our lives.

You can read more about this in any of Bill Plotkins books; Soulcraft: Crossing into the mysteries of Nature and Psyche, Nature and the Human Soul and Wild Mind: Nature’s Guide to the Human Psyche.

Now we come back to courage, courage being the great aspect of our beings that can overcome our fears. I think we all know how incredible it is to overcome fears, the sensation is body tingling to say the least.

So as I said at the beginning, I have never come to short of courage, the distances I have endured because of this is incredible. From; over 20,000km hitchhiking in New Zealand, climbing mountains, deep sea fishing , growing kiwifruit, countless festivals, cooking in the ground, sand boarding, caving, climbing waterfalls and the list goes on.

Now I will tell you what I want to do next, I want to watch you courageously walk into the sunset, descend into the darkness and onto the plains of the unknown. A place where adventure awaits you and your vibrant spirit, a place where you will discover your gifts for the world, and a place that will bring to light the purpose of your soul. So, what are you waiting for?