Just what I needed!

Sometimes, life can seriously get the better of us, particularly in thisĀ artificial landscape where we have become so saturated by this superficiality that we deem so important. It’s so easy to forget about what truly matters to us as we allow our minds to take full control and chaotically drag us around like a runaway train. I mean, at least that’s how I feel sometimes, more so now than ever before as I transition from full-time nomad to full-time student. The relentless pull back towards the undeniably blissful experience that being on the road in an unknown land, in an unknown culture and walking an unknown path, is.

Anybody who knows me would tell you that I am such a positive and vibrant person who only ever sees the best in life, as if I viewed life through lenses made of diamonds. It is absolutely true for the most part, however, sometimes lenses can become foggy and need cleaning. After all, I am human, just like you, and feel every emotion we have the ability to experience on this earthly plain. Which means that sometimes the energy in motion I am feeling may well be sadness, loneliness, anger, or even very sporadically, depression. Believe it or not, I am grateful for these times as there is always a lesson and an opportunity for development, it also brings about balance when we are living in duality; it makes the experience human.

When I sit with these emotions and be present with them instead of masking the symptoms by numbing my mind, or as I have done my whole life; ran away from them, they tell me what I need most. Normally, I realise I have entered into that superficial state and just need to bring myself back to the centre of my being, ground myself, breathe deep and listen to the sounds of my heart as it plays out its own rhythm. This time, whilst I listened intently, positive affirmations on repeat in my mind, I knew what I needed, I needed that tribal connection, a sense of community and belonging that has been neglected in our societies for quite sometime throughout the years of industry and technology.

As much a there is a certain sense of community living here in the graceful presence of Bridget, volunteering for Finchams Farm Turnaround Stays, I still needed something more. After about two weeks of this feeling of uncertainty, I woke up this morning, did my affirmations and I felt called to go to church with Bridget. I didn’t hesitate once, I immediately got myself ready and told Bridget I would be joining her.

On arrival to Hope Church, Thetford, we had a cup of tea and got straight into singing songs of worship. The first song nearly had me in tears, I was so happy to be there and so thankful to myself for listening to that intuitive voice and going along! I hadn’t been to church for a very longtime, in fact, I am not sure I ever really went to church as it carries a certain stigma which IĀ  now think is absolutely detrimental to the development of our communities as the connection to spirit is a huge part of living a healthy and fulfilling life!

Just being there, with all of these other people, just ordinary beings, like you and I, singing songs of praise, felt incredible. In that there is community, in that there is belonging, in that I see, deeply rooted, a connection to tribe, a connection that has been severed for so many of us, a connection we could all do with re-connecting to to bring about a certain sense of peace, a much needed dimension for all of us on this planet.

I do understand that most people may feel like this isn’t for them as they are not religious, I felt like that for a long time as well until I realised that there was so much more to it than just religion. I don’t actually identify with any religion myself, but I do have a deep understanding about the notion of God. God is a powerful word and in itself carries a stigma, I understand now that God is subjective to the individual and is heavily dependant on personal interpretation. Who am I to judge others and their interpretations, and why should I let that deter me from experiencing such powerful, binding moments of unity. It is safe to say that going to church was just what I needed, and it is most definitely going to be something I will be doing on a weekly basis from this day forth as it really is, nurturing.DSC_0198